How can something so noiseless
be so loud
His silence is deafening to my heart.
It's like a trumpet blairing in my ear
like a runaway train barreling through my heart.
How can I be hopeful in his silences
How can I not question my actions
or lack there of... did I? did I not?
should I have said that? this?
Not said that? this?
What did I do?
Will his silence end with
goodbye????
In his silences I remember...
the pain of loving.. of losing..
and I want to retreat back into
my solitude...
How could I have been so careless??
has my heart mended so completely
that I forgot to remember the pain?
other faces come back into focus..
and they mock me..
you thought you might be worthy of love..
they chide..
think again.. remember me.. I tell you the truth..
you are a failure in this dangerous arena...
You lose every time.. How could you forget?
I'll help you recall all that is wrong with the escence..
of you
Stupid.. idiot..
love.. that is for others.. not you..
not me...
He figured it out... his silence tells me..
He's laughing... He's taunting...
Thanks for sharing the deepest part of
you
with
me
but.. now I no longer desire
the hideous thing that is
you
silence is screaming in my face...
Go away... leave me alone....
crawl back under the covers..
shrivel up and die...
Silence...
