Perfect evening...

One mom...
Two sons...
One daughter...
Two friends....
Great BBQ chicken...
Stimulating Conversation...
Laughter...
Surprises...
Relaxation...
Love...
Serenity...

Just a Day....

Even though it's just another day,
It's a day meant to celebrate something that is an important part of who we are...

Father's Day for you...
Mother's Day for me...

In my heart I am a mother of 4.. yet every year I celebrate as the mother of 3..

In your heart you are "Dad"....
yet every year you celebrate with no one...

It sucks.. It's unfair... and no one will ever be able to say anything to you to make you feel better...

Because the sadness of losing our children will be a part of who we are until the day we die...

It is actually part of our DNA now...

So.. just feel sad... just be miserable... because that is how you feel and no one should ever make you feel bad for feeling that way.

You'll rise up again in a few days/weeks... but for now...

You're just sad....

and I understand...

Forever...

Continued Focus

I continue to focus on my goal of finishing my 5K fun run on July 9th.

Last week I ran/walked.. (but mostly ran) almost 250 minutes. That's about 15 miles. I feel good about that.

For my whole life I've watched people I love cross finish lines.. and now, I'll be crossing one.

Please pray for my knees. They are not liking all this running. But.. they are going to have to get used it.

Summer fun...

This has been the best summer ever so far. So much fun having all three of my kids home with me.. and my yard is looking so great. I had coffee on the patio this morning with my son Nathan. So nice and peaceful. I love not having any demands on my time right now. I have to take Savannah to and from her babysitting jobs, but other than that I'm free and easy right now. That'll change in about a week, but for now.. I'm loving it!

Something new...

.... A new friend? A new love? A new companion?

Not sure.. but it was a nice conversation.. easy and uncomplicated.

He made me laugh.. and think.. and a little nervous.

Not sure I'm ready.. but I don't want to be alone either....

So... I think I'll go out with him.. just to see. Just to see...

Still I Rise by Maya Angelou

I love this poem... because it's so human and true for anyone who has ever suffered....

enjoy..

Rest...

Finally... at 2pm tomorrow.. I will be sitting with a group of friends.. having a drink.. a few snacks.. a few laughs... and a few goodbyes.

And summer will officially start for me. I have an entire week off with nothing to do except sleep in.. work in my yard.. read.. work out.. and enjoy my kids and my life...

I'm thinking about all my friends who are living in the paths of tornadoes.. and I'm praying that you'll be safe and your homes will be safe..

I'm thankful that we are experiencing mild weather right now. We had days and days of rain.. but not anything life threatening.

I'm in the process of training for a 5K run.. My wonderful sons are helping me. Monday.. 30 minutes on the treadmill.. running/walking intervals. Tuesday.. running/walking incline intervals.. then lunges(which is why I can walk today)
Tonight.. an hour of tennis and then walking/running around the track for 6 laps.

I'm tired... Good night.. Sleep tight... Don't let the tornadoes bite!