It could be that one day the joy will end.. and the mundane will once again enter my life. The fear that this could happen could enter my conscious and allow me to question the saneness of giving my heart to this wonderful man.
Now.. I refuse to let that happen. I refuse..
So.. right now I am fearless. I am living for each moment. Loving each moment.. feeling each moment intensely. If it should all disappear for whatever reason, I'll know that I put all of me into it.. the real me.. the authentic me
The me that doesn't keep a neat house.. that doesn't have a perfect body.. the me that knows how to touch him and kiss him and make love to him in the ways that bring him to ecstasy.... The me that needs to feel his warm body next to me each night.. and each morning waking to his touch...
I'm no longer afraid to be "Everyone's Next One" because I'd rather have a life of love and amazing moments than years and years of mundane indifference.
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