Acceptance

I was thinking the other day about acceptance and how really... that is all we want in our lives. We want others to see us and accept us just the way we are. Of course, we know this is rarely the case. In fact, many of us don't even accept ourselves they way we are. Many times we are more critical of ourselves than others are about us. I have noticed that even when I know I'm being accepted for me.. and only me.. I still question it. I still wonder if I were prettier, skinnier, smarter, more successful would they accept me even more? I'm never going to be smarter, prettier, skinnier or more successful.. I'm always going to be me. Loving and accepting means that I'm good enough. So.. I guess each day we have to look in the mirror and love what we see.. and love what's on the inside.. despite the things we wish we could change. Acceptance... Something to strive for...

Lonely Friday Night

It's been a while since I've been by myself on a Friday night. Mark is always playing with his band on Fridays and I'm usually right there listening to them.. and dancing, and looking at his sexy self. Tonight I just didn't have the funds or energy to go out. Spent the evening catching up on some tv shows I haven't followed in a while. TV used to be my best friend. Spent a lot of time with it. Now.. Mark is my best friend and TV has gone by the wayside. Well.. except for Dexter. Mark and I love to watch Dexter together. I'm going to bed.. I'll be waiting for Mark to snuggle on up to me when he gets home.. Snuggling with him is what I live for. It always ends my day perfectly. Ahhhh... love. I've always thought that I'd been in love before.. Now I know what love truly feels like.. It feels safe and warm and comfortable and real. Good night... I'm tired...